So yes glittersavvy and myself have seen the Dark Knight twice. Epic. I'm sure MOST of you have seen it by now. We do plan to see it once more before it's out of the cinema (oh dear IMAX only screenings ;_;)
Lysa stayed over towards the end of July and during August which was good as it allowed Sam to have some fun, and so while I went off to a conference in Edinburgh they went down to London.
It was good to see everyone out for Luke and Michelle's wedding reception and I was coerced into dancing with Sam to the Timewarp. 'TIMEWARP!' - Tim Beasley
We've also been out to see the new Mummy film. Nice visually but the Yetis... oh for the love of god the fucking Yetis! I shall say no more.
We also picked up a copy of REC which if you haven't seen is a great little spanish horror. Very disturbing to the end. Well filmed and really takes the 'reality horror' genre to a new level. Oh and did I say I hate screaming granny like monster throat biting things???
Oh did I say my hair is white again? Go see Sam's/glittersavvy 's LJ for evidence
The conference. Well those of you who don't know the Faraday Discussions (this one was on the topic of water at interfaces) are very different to others. We get all the papers before the conference and the speakers only have 5 mins to present their work. After that they have a grueling 15 minutes of questions where their work is praised/torn apart by their peers. Needless to say it was quite interesting to learn what the state of the art is in simulations of water and has led to me outlining a project proposal and feelign quite confident about my own work and where it can lead to. My poster was recieved well and quite a few people realised the novelty of it.
Coming back I was welcomed with a nice new top that Sam got for me while I was away. It was hard no being with Sam for just those few days but I was happier knowing she at least had soem company and that she was having a lot more fun that me sat in a lecture hall dosing up on coffee.
Next film on the list of things we have seen was 'The Duchess'. Good period drama, great sets and costumes. Even quite funny in places. Oh except for the fucking harlots that were talking all the way through it sat behind us.
More importantly was Sam's 23 birthday. I think I did well on the presents this year as they are all quite personal or deeply desired. Some Dior perfume that she has been pining for ages and two awesome pictures on canvas. One a montage of Heath/Joker. We has also been out to get birthday cake and bits for a bit of a party for after the meal at Felicini's.
However no matter my efforts the birthday weekend seemed a bit blah. It's upset Sam and myself somewhat. Birthday candles seemed a bit pointless in the end. Thank you to Donda and Phil for coming round though.
Recently work has been getting crazy. I official have no more funding and really can only afford to carry on until the end of October meaning papers are being written and a thesis is being pulled together. It's kinda weird but I am amazed that I have met my objectives of my PhD... just need a job now. Time at evenings and weekends are getting channeled to get this finished.
The plans for the wedding are set and invites for the handfasting/blessing/reception have been given out. I have my outfit for Venice and Sam's should be arriving soon. I do hope everyone who has been invited can make it.
On another note hopefully I should get to see the photo's from Sam's new photo shoot with Rob. There are already 2 up on his website and 2 others which are cut downs of the main one (one in the slide show banner and the other on the faq page I think). Can't wait to see her in the wedding dress now!
Monday 29 September 2008
Tuesday 9 September 2008
A deep apology, but I have nothing to hide other than my foolishness
So this is me owning up in front of all my friends that I have hurt Sam terribly recently. I have nothing to hide, not from you or her.
Here is how. You may think what you wish but it doesn't change the facts.
A couple of weeks before I met Sam I had made a mistake, something I realized before I had even met Sam.
I slept with Jules. This was before I had moved into that flat there. I know, it made moving to that flat complicated as I had already signed contracts and put up deposits for it, and I was stupid for that.
It was foolish and childish or me to have done that. But I thought I could be mature and forget it had happened and move past it. I had no desire to revisit it and felt no better for it. But I knew that it would never happen again.
And then weeks later I met Sam. And I fell for her on day one. No matter how melodramatic that sounds. And yes it scared me because I have been a major relationship before and felt emotions that were not as strong and was hurt when it taken away. So this time I knew I would not rush things and take it as each day comes.
You may well ask why I didn't tell Sam even then that I had slept with Jules. I felt it was not her concern. It was my mistake and mattered little to me considering how much I love Sam.
2 more months past I moved to the new flat. That's two months of just me and Sam. I had also vowed never to see Sam hurt after how I had seen her when her father passed away.
So now, recently, this has all come out. I admit I was wrong for not telling Sam, but then I felt that it happened before I had met her and so did not involve her.
But it does. Because by keeping it a secret it has brought my own faithfulness into question. I understand that and cannot blame Sam for thinking that way.
But I have been faithful to Sam since day one, because that is what a relationship is about, no matter what anyone will otherwise suggest .
Now for those having read this there is also one other thing that must be made clear. The wedding had been spoken of long before all this was revealed, and so mine and Sam's desire to be wed was strong well before there was any of this doubt.
Ultimately I want everyone to know what a fool I have been and how I have hurt Sam, but that I will never hurt her like this again, not keep things from her, and that I have always been faithful to her, just as I have always been faithful to those in the past that I did not care for as much. I know there are some of you who will think less of me and doubt me, but know that you would be wrong to doubt my faithfulness to Sam.
And finally so that you all know, that I am not leaving Sam and that I love her in a way that cannot be expressed by words.
Chris Handley
Here is how. You may think what you wish but it doesn't change the facts.
A couple of weeks before I met Sam I had made a mistake, something I realized before I had even met Sam.
I slept with Jules. This was before I had moved into that flat there. I know, it made moving to that flat complicated as I had already signed contracts and put up deposits for it, and I was stupid for that.
It was foolish and childish or me to have done that. But I thought I could be mature and forget it had happened and move past it. I had no desire to revisit it and felt no better for it. But I knew that it would never happen again.
And then weeks later I met Sam. And I fell for her on day one. No matter how melodramatic that sounds. And yes it scared me because I have been a major relationship before and felt emotions that were not as strong and was hurt when it taken away. So this time I knew I would not rush things and take it as each day comes.
You may well ask why I didn't tell Sam even then that I had slept with Jules. I felt it was not her concern. It was my mistake and mattered little to me considering how much I love Sam.
2 more months past I moved to the new flat. That's two months of just me and Sam. I had also vowed never to see Sam hurt after how I had seen her when her father passed away.
So now, recently, this has all come out. I admit I was wrong for not telling Sam, but then I felt that it happened before I had met her and so did not involve her.
But it does. Because by keeping it a secret it has brought my own faithfulness into question. I understand that and cannot blame Sam for thinking that way.
But I have been faithful to Sam since day one, because that is what a relationship is about, no matter what anyone will otherwise suggest .
Now for those having read this there is also one other thing that must be made clear. The wedding had been spoken of long before all this was revealed, and so mine and Sam's desire to be wed was strong well before there was any of this doubt.
Ultimately I want everyone to know what a fool I have been and how I have hurt Sam, but that I will never hurt her like this again, not keep things from her, and that I have always been faithful to her, just as I have always been faithful to those in the past that I did not care for as much. I know there are some of you who will think less of me and doubt me, but know that you would be wrong to doubt my faithfulness to Sam.
And finally so that you all know, that I am not leaving Sam and that I love her in a way that cannot be expressed by words.
Chris Handley
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